It was a cold morning, 7.30am, I walked out of my room. I was not in a good mood. Before I went out, I grabbed my mp4, earphone, bag, wallet and cell phone. My heart felt so uneasy. I tried to ignore the feeling but it still bothered me.
I felt so warm in my eyes. I know it was a sign that I was going to cry. But I was not going to let it out. Quickly I turn on my mp4, put on the earphones and turn the music up. I choose a song titled Je Suis Mon Coeur (I Am My Heart) sang by Lara Fabian. I don't understand the meaning of its lyric coz it is in french. But I like the voice, the sound and the emotion of the song. I walked to the bus stop.
While I walk, Lara read a poem before she sings the song. I can't understand the meaning but I can feel the emotion of the poem. My heart started to get influenced by the poem. I walked slowly. My movement followed the tempo of the poem. She read the poem with a piano sound as background music. Simple music but big emotion. I felt like I was in Lara's place. Maybe it sounds creepy but I am serious about this.
When Lara started the song, suddenly my mouth tried to move and say some of the lyric. Sometimes I closed my eyes for short time. When I arrived at the bus stop, I sat. Some guys already there, waited for the bus. I ignored them. I don't even know them. I was still listening to Lara's voice.
I closed my eyes again. Imagine I am on the stage sing the song. Express my feeling to the whole audiences. Where people listen to my words. Where people appreciate my feeling. When Lara sang the climax of the song, I felt shivers. A mixed cold and warm feeling rushed through my body. It was like the feeling tried to get rid my entire sad story. After the climax, Lara just humming her voice. In a beautiful way. Beautiful enough to make me smile.
I never imagined that a song can affect my emotion. It was a big great impact to my feeling. I never imagine that a sad emotion song can help me to get rid of my sad story. I don't know how I should say it. The only thing that I know is the song is a great art of human.
Remember that nite? It was raining, it was so cold.
Under my black umbrella, I walked on the dark road.
My coat got wet as I watched cats in their fight.
But there you are, standing under the red light.
You were leaning against the wall, smoking.
I saw you smiling but the truth is you were crying.
You saw me walking up to you, you covered up your pain.
Tried to hide the tears, you went standing under the rain.
Under the umbrella we walked through the street.
You smiled at me, like everything was sweet
But from your calls, I knew you were hurt.
In those red eyes of yours, I saw the word.
You drank the hot chocolate, under the blanket.
You looked outside the window, the heavier the rain get.
On my white couch, you hugged yourself harder
And then, the tears that were hiding before, there they are.
