“Lee, ko boleh tak pasang lagu slow
sikit? Aku nak study tak boleh lah.” Roommate aku, Hafiz mule bercakap. Time
tuh aku tengah baring atas katil, menikmati masa rehat. Tak tido, rehat jer.
“Lah, kalau kau rase aku pasang kuat
sangat, slowkan lah sendiri. Laptop tuh depan mata kau.” Ape tah masalah die.
Time akunak rehat jer mesti die nak
study. Dah lah smoking dalam bilik. Mau nak naik barah paru-paru kat system tubuh
aku ni.
“Takde lah, aku takut engkau terasa
hati.” Die ni selalu tak fikir bile bercakap. Die cume tahu ape yang die nak.
Tak banyak fikir ape yang orang lain fikir.
“Takde nyer aku nak makan hati.
Kalau ko cakap baik-baik, aku nak terase ape? I can compromise with you. I
opened my heart already. We are roommates, we will be in this room for another
one semester ok? Open up your heart lah.” Aku malas sebenarnye nak bukak hati
aku untuk orang yang aku baru kenal. Tapi since die adalah roommate aku, aku
pun terpakse lah terime die.
“Betul no feelings?” Mamat ni memang
sengal, kalau die takde dalam bilik tuh pun takpe. Kalau die ade, aku rase
macam tak bebas nak buat ape ape. Sume kene ikut cakap die.
“Betul lah! Ko nak aku marah ke? Aku
no hal setakat nak marah ni.” Aku still cube untuk compromise dengan die. Aku
pun tak tahu sejauh mane aku boleh bertahan dengan die.
“Takde lah, aku just takut ko terase
jer.” Ini dah semester ke dua aku bilik dengan die. Die still nak formal dengan
aku. Aku rase die memang tak ade hati nak berkawan dengan aku. Die tak bukak
hati die untuk berkawan dengan aku.
“Mampus kau lah. Suke hati ko lah.
Aku just compromise selagi ko tak hisap rokok dalam bilik. If you smoke in
here, then my laptop will never shut up.” Aku memang rase nak tumbuk muke die.
Aku tahan jer. Aku tak akan naikkan kaki atau tangan untuk senyapkan mulut
orang.
“Ok.” At last, die puas hati pun.
Aku tension dengan die. Bukan nak kate aku ni perfect. But, at least can he
open up his heart to his roommate. Die ni ego tinggi. Last semester, time study
week, die nak tanye aku something yang die tak faham, tapi die malu nak tanye
sebab kawan-kawan aku ade. I don’t know why. Maybe die tak nak orang nampak die
macam orang yang bodoh kot. Even aku yang pointer lagi tinggi dari die pon tak
macam tuh. Tak faham tanye. Jangan jadi orang sombong yang bodoh. Nasib baik
semester ni perangai tak macam dulu.
“Seriously please lah open up your
heart dude.” Aku tutup laptop aku, then aku bangun, capai topi aku, handphone,
beg duit and kunci bilik. Aku keluar dari bilik.
Malade May 9, 2009 11:38 AM PDT Excuse me, this happen before the gunting rambut event ok? Understand? Plus this is my story, i have the power to mess up the arrangement compared to real life... I DONT CARE PEOPLE KNOW BOUT MY SECRET.... XOXO GOSSIP BOY..
sape tah May 6, 2009 09:56 AM PDT wow... gile la..... cmni ke rumet u? tp bukan die layan u baik ke? sampai nmpk die anta u gunting rambut kat mane ea? meranti kot..... dear blogger..... u'r being ungrateful to him..... u owe him a lot.... and i know most of ur secrets.... xoxo, gossip girl.......
Remember that nite? It was raining, it was so cold.
Under my black umbrella, I walked on the dark road.
My coat got wet as I watched cats in their fight.
But there you are, standing under the red light.
You were leaning against the wall, smoking.
I saw you smiling but the truth is you were crying.
You saw me walking up to you, you covered up your pain.
Tried to hide the tears, you went standing under the rain.
Under the umbrella we walked through the street.
You smiled at me, like everything was sweet
But from your calls, I knew you were hurt.
In those red eyes of yours, I saw the word.
You drank the hot chocolate, under the blanket.
You looked outside the window, the heavier the rain get.
On my white couch, you hugged yourself harder
And then, the tears that were hiding before, there they are.